Wednesday, November 27, 2002
02:41 AM
"Driftwood" by Travis
To Do Thanksgiving Weekend:1. Spend time with the following people: Justin, Monica, Laura, Irene, Danielle, Lisa, Jinra, & my brother.
2. DRIVE!!! :)
3. Buy yarn. Lots of it.
4. Write review for THAC1.
5. Read sample paper for LTWL4M.
6. Eat copious amounts of food without guilt.
7. Find a planner.
8. Go to Old Navy.
9. Play billiards and have pina coladas.
10. Watch SNL with friends.
11. Read The Invisible Man
12. Develop pictures.
13. Redesign this sucker.
14. Weigh self.
15. Paint.
16. Laundry.
17. Bake lemon bars.
18. Make sure to let everyone who is important to me know how grateful I am for their presence in my life.
19. Watch Amelie, Sweet November, Harry Potter & The Chamber of Secrets, & Legally Blonde
Tuesday, November 26, 2002
02:23 AM
"Secret" by Howie Day
I got my awesome awesome awesome package from Gina today - I LOVE IT. It came with the prettiest little box of life - and the coolest mixed CDs that couldn't come from a cooler person. I love Gina I love Gina I love Gina, she's one of the raddest friends a girl could ever ask for :)Just a small side note: whatever happened to those few small months in which I was truly happy, independent, and single? I'm taking back those few moments of clarity I found without boys - such a waste of time.
Only the real stuff from now on. No more hypothetical crap.
I'm feeling strangely fine.
I think when I'm home this weekend, I'm going to eat a lot, sleep a lot, read a lot, dream a lot, laugh a lot, and love a lot. I'm going to get my hair cut (sideswept bangs? That was a good phase), spend time playing with my dogs, spend time with my friends at home whom I love, and clear my head. It will be good for me. I love a breath of fresh air with crunchy autumn leaves underneath my feet. Then I will come back to San Diego, and fearlessly face finals.
Saturday, November 23, 2002
06:25 PM
"I Could Be Dreaming" by Belle & Sebastian
Last night was one of the funnest nights I've had since I've been here - drag queens & dinner, extraordinary desserts, and too many drunk people downtown.My suitemate's boyfriend got a kinky lapdance from drag queens - involving handcuffs and whipped cream. That was the funniest thing I have ever seen in my life - I could have died then and my life would be complete.
Right now however, I'm being a dumb sulky girl. And I hate it. What's wrong with me? Why don't any of these relationship deals work out for me?
Thursday, November 21, 2002
12:17 PM
"Brown Eyed Girl" (covered) by Everclear
It's a drowsy kind of warm fall afternoon in beautiful southern California - the kind where the sun bites at your shoulders and the weather is so static that it sparks just by walking through it. I'm not too fond of the sparking part...I have a great fear of static shock. I kind of want to take the five minute walk to the beach and dig my toes into the Pacific. Goshdarn classes. I'm registering for Winter Quarter tonight...just when I was getting used to this quarter.No more ambiguous entries, I know how boring it is to read them. I'm going to write some postcards, finish Gina's package (FINALLY), talk to my academic advisor, and then go to class. It's a beautiful day.
Wednesday, November 20, 2002
01:39 AM
"Secret" by Maroon 5
I'm being really stupid right now and reminiscing pathetically about all things Big.I really shouldn't do that. I have so many amazing things going on right now...I went to a gospel choir concert tonight and it was really quite beautiful. Some of my friends were in it...I want to take gospel choir! But as of now, I have way too many other credits to worry about - there's no possible way I'm going to have a shortage of units standing in the way of graduation.
Sometimes it's easier to sink back into the root of the problem to figure out why things are turning out the way they are.
I'm too neurotic. Just so everyone knows, I love Justin...he's the best friend a girl could ever ask for.
Tuesday, November 19, 2002
04:47 AM
"Rollerskate" by Call and Response
Beautiful meteor shower, lying on my back nestled on the side of a mountain deep in southern California. Moments like these are what life should always be about. P.S. Jinra sent me an awesome mixed CD for my birthday...it's been playing nonstop. :)
Friday, November 15, 2002
02:57 AM
"Stephanie Says" by Velvet Underground
So Taylor Hanson, 19, has a baby, and I can't even commit to a relationship with a great guy? I really am Carrie (Sex and the City). However, I can't help but snicker...so, it's normal for everyone to have a baby 5 months after you get married, right? ;)I'm out for the weekend, I desperately need it.
Wednesday, November 13, 2002
11:47 PM
"No Stopping Us" by Jason Mraz
I got an A on my paper on Breathless for my World Lit. class on the French New Wave! I'm really happy with the way things are going schoolwise so far - midterms, ha! ain't no thang but a chicken wang (much easier to say now than it was at 6 AM the day of). I talked to my academic advisor today, and she is finally conceding to my persistence in double majoring. However, this was not comforting: "You only have 240 units to cover in 15 quarters. You'll be fine."Yes, I realize 15 quarters = 5 years. I'm hoping I won't be a 5th year...I planned out my schedule (a rough version, as we all know how registering really turns out) for Winter Quarter and I have enough room for 21 units and a social life. I would be really happy - the classes are really awesome ones. Talking to my academic advisor really help bring my focus back into what my life is about, and what direction I want to take. It's still early and I still have a ton of grasping to do - but I'm grasping with direction now. I won't worry my life away.
I'm also considering studying abroad my third year...it is financially achievable, and would be good for the soul. I love that so many doors are open right now.
As you all know, I've been expanding my Sex and the City encyclopedia. It's like the Quintessential Guide To Life (if you have a uterus, that is). I've been able to relate so many things, from my love life to my PoliSci class, to it! So many things just make sense after it...I have myself a Mr. Big, I wish I had an Aidan, and I aspire to have the incredible collection of shoes. ;) Most importantly, I'm taking a man's approach to men. No more mushy gushy talking about it, no more overanalying, no more of that love crap...just straight up, hardcore, hand holding for me.
I have to say that as glazed over and studio fixed as Jason Mraz's "Waiting For My Rocket To Come" is, the whole album is the theme to my life at this point. And it's beautiful.
I guess this entry was more about myself than I had intended. These were just a lot of things going around in my mind right now, I'm feeling particularly ambitious.
"He can't be narcissistic, narcissists have some charm. He's an egotist."
Tuesday, November 12, 2002
03:04 PM
"The Remedy" by Jason Mraz
I've taken a newfound approach to life, although I had taken this gesture a few weeks ago, I thought this would be an appropriate time - after being exactly 18 for one week - to announce it publicly. I'm going to have relationships like a man from now on - no more sissy girltalk, no more overanalyzation, no more tears, no more pettiness. I'm going to take it like a man. Muahahaha. So far, it's working out deliciously for me.Sex And The City is my new Bible.
Sunday, November 10, 2002
10:06 PM
"Thank You" by Dido
I'm really very tired. And I saw a giraffe penis today. I think I will sleep. Pictures later.
Thursday, November 7, 2002
06:22 PM
"Satisfaction" (covered) by Britney Spears
I'm in a silly mood. I'm envious of people who can dye their hair any color and look fantastic. AKA, I'm envious of white people. I shake my fist at you. I could dye my hair, but then I'd just look stupid. It's potentially rainy tonight, and I hate rain. It makes the world so gloomy and smelly. I think I'm going to settle in for a night of really corny, loud, fun music (yes, I do have "Man I Feel Like A Woman" by Shania Twain, and yes, my roommate and I were singing to it) and episodes of Sex and the City in between catching up on my reading and organizing my life.TO DO:
1. Catch up on POLI13 reading.
2. Read Ch. 8 for BILD26.
3. Take out trash.
4. Fix programs and post pictures.
12:14 PM
"If We Can Land a Man On The Moon, Surely I Can Win Your Heart" by Beulah
Now that I've downloaded the (almost) complete Season 4 of Sex and the City and obtained some yarn, I think I will never need a social life again. Who needs boys, friends, parties, etc.?Not I!
Wednesday, November 6, 2002
02:11 AM
"I'll Do Anything" by Jason Mraz
I've finally turn legal in a beautiful blur of pink. My first official business as an 18 year old was to vote, and I did. That was exciting :) I received so many beautiful gestures of love and kindness today that I'm completely still bowled over in awe. I'm surrounded by so many wonderful people that there is no reason to ever feel alone or unloved. I have pictures of pretty things that I will post later, once I get my files together on my computer.
It was a beautiful blur of pink flowers and pink wrapping, lots of pink wrapping, pink balloons, BJ's, late night bus ride full of laughter and talk of early 90's shows, lots of pictures taken, lifetime supply of pink thongs, and well wishers. Thank you so much...just for being you. I'm in love.
Monday, November 4, 2002
02:49 AM
"Bright Eyes" by Jason Mraz
I think sometime, probably later today, I'll write a really insightful entry which will completely clear my mind and make me feel a whole lot better - and hopefully in turn, make you feel better too. For now though, read something he wrote on love, at home for the holidays. It really cheered me up tonight. Oh...and against my better judgement, as these pictures are really lame, I posted pictures from Halloween.
Friday, November 1, 2002
02:01 AM
"After An Afternoon" by Jason Mraz
Hope you kids all had a great Halloween :) Does anyone care for some pictures from Halloween? They're not exciting, so I'm wondering if they're worth the time.
