Tuesday, September 30, 2003

04:37 PM

"When Everything Seems Wrong" by Ari Hest

How come people find my site by googling "prostitution"? Is that bad? Or bad in a good way?

Sunday, September 28, 2003

11:39 PM

"Water" by Jason Mraz

I am picking at a salad of chickpeas, tofu, cherry tomatoes, and cucumbers. I'm also trying to read four 16 page articles for my Comm. class. No longer considering Communications major. I am, however, seriously considering a Literature/Writing major. Double majoring with Visual Arts Media/Film. But we'll see how it all goes. I'm such an art student.

I'm addicted to gardenburgers, esp. of the Morningstar sort. They taste better than hamburgers to me. I'm also listening to Jason Mraz's Homemade CD. The ocean is softly crashing outside my window; and life is so lovely.

What would be lovelier would be your comments on your lives.

Saturday, September 27, 2003

05:40 PM

"Tracing" by John Mayer

It's a lovely first weekend back at school; my suitemates are adorable. I went to Twiggs last night, finally getting a good fix like a good coffeehouse junkie. First one in what seems like years. I introduced some friends to the goods of Saba, in which I have discovered over the summer. She is even more lovely and amazing in person.

I'm on a vegetarian kick while I'm at school, or at least limiting meat to weekends. Not for moral reasons, not for health reasons, but simply for the fact that dining hall meat is gross and a serious insult to the animal who died to be that disgusting. (This, however, does not imply that I am not consuming a small country's worth of food each time I eat). I am working out every other day now, so I'm practically godly.

I am getting a lot more involved this year than I had anticipated; so it goes.

Sunday, September 21, 2003

03:49 AM

"Wonderful Tonight" by Eric Clapton

The first song that came up random on my WinAmp was "Back Here" by BBMak. It was appropriate to be the first song to be played in my new room on the first day of moving back.

It's strange, I have a single this year. Life is strange without a roommate, Lindsey and I keep kicking ourselves for not picking a double, but things will work out. I'll make use of my single, if you know what I mean. I just realized that probably means my bed has also been made of many uses to its previous owners.

...and I should stop realizing.

But I'm back, poignant, refreshed, and ready for a new year (like you wouldn't believe). Like I don't believe, because it seemed just a few days ago summer was so comfortable.

Tonight is wonderful, and so is the rest of my life.

Tuesday, September 16, 2003

11:01 PM

"It's Oh So Quiet" by Bjork

I am going crazy trying to pack for college. Somehow...not as exciting this year as it was last year.

12:07 AM

"Nightingale" by Norah Jones

I love Seth Green and truly think he should marry me.

Can someone send him the notice?

Monday, September 15, 2003

08:23 PM

"0% Interest" (piano solo version) by Jason Mraz

I am so so so so so sad. My dream concert of the century: Jason Mraz & Jonny Lang playing together, in Vegas, on my birthday. And I probably won't be able to go.

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04:13 AM

"The Sweetest Taboo" by Sade

I just wrote this long winded entry involving philosophy and theology, one in which I will probably never be able to recreate as well as the first time, no matter how hard I tried. And I lost it, by slight of hand. This is why I hate the internet and digital technology. Easy come, easy go.

I've been having really good conversations this weekend, coming from behind doors that I thought would be closed for a good while, if not ever.

And I appreciate good conversations like I appreciate good hair days, good creme brulee, and good weather. Things that are so good that great doesn't even cover it, but simply cheapens the goodness of it all.

There are ones that make you think about the world at large, bring a new perspective on things, or make you question yourself even more. I had all three, and more, over the weekend. The world just gets too big to think about sometimes. And then I focus on trivial things like shoe-shopping and new movies.

I had this great segue into -- what is it all worth? Life is what you make of it, and in the end what is it that we're making of it? There are so many points and counterpoints to everything, that if life were an essay, where would it end? Are we rewriting on page 17,354 what we learned on page 3? If humanity were to be ended when the earth is consumed by the sun, would we start all over again? Would we continue to make the same mistakes, learn the same lessons, and roll that rock up the hill? Would we still give our fragile hearts to the same careless people? Would we still believe the same lies, make the wrong choices (and the right ones), and love the same way?

But alas, I cut it short by accidentally closing the window.

I am finally, finally, finally out of words.

Sunday, September 14, 2003

03:41 PM

"Underneath" by Hanson

I have to bake a cake.

It was Danielle's birthday yesterday, but we're celebrating today.
I finished Me Talk Pretty One Day, and I think I will read The End of the Affair next. Or maybe Timequake.

P.S. Thanks for commenting, guys :) Some of you I didn't know were out there, and it's good to see your names & read your comments. Thanks just for being fabulous & you. Now I didn't say stop with the comments.

Saturday, September 13, 2003

11:28 PM

"Love Ridden" by Fiona Apple

I went hiking 7000ft up in the air, and had overrated apple pie. Then a nice facial, and it's time for a shower.

Where are all my guests at? Where are all your comments? You have a voice, use it.

01:37 AM

"Amazing" by Josh Kelley

Just when Friday night seemed like a write off, after an 8PM nap, I get a message from an old friend. We meet for coffee, and it's just like nothing ever changed -- and no time ever passed. It's so comforting to have old friends that you can meet anytime for coffee and great conversation.

Friday, September 12, 2003

02:12 AM

"Bigger Than My Body" by John Mayer

John Ritter died. Late at night I get contemplative about depth of soul and life -- and of course, the inevitable death event. And it just freaks me out so, in this common way. I'm just fearing the unknown, not fearing the event. It is stupid, because why should I be afraid of something when i don't even know what it is?

I fixed my greymatter archives. At least that much, I know. & I dropped half my summer's savings on another digital camera. Going to cut my hair again sometime next week, before school. Going to dye it again, before that. And find a pair of big girl shoes.

Life is easier when living shallowly. It doesn't get too hard to handle.

Wednesday, September 10, 2003

08:48 PM

"What A Good Boy" by BNL

I forgot to mention: look for me on Leno tonight, I'm in the first row -- guests are Farrah Fawcett, George Wallace, and Fountains of Wayne.

Post Show Edit:
Justin: I SAW YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Justin: OMG I SEE U NOW! AGAIN!!!!
Justin: i could even distinguish ure laugh!!!!
Justin: omg i hear u laugh constantly
Justin: and i see u

12:11 AM

"Never Is A Promise" by Fiona Apple

I've been crying for over an hour.

When it rains, it pours, right?

Monday, September 8, 2003

11:59 PM

"Tracing" by John Mayer

Continuing with my fucked up life, and my overwhelmingly lumpish personality, I dropped my fucking digital camera in the fucking Pacific Ocean.

And if you want to know the moment
I knew that I was still alone
I found I never learned your number
I only stored it in my phone
You'd think by now
I'd know the shape of calling home

Why does it still hurt?

Sunday, September 7, 2003

12:51 AM

"Loving Wings" by Dave Matthews Band

I am truly ashamed. I forgot the password to my online banking, therefore I "generated a security error". I "exceeded the amount of bad PINs allowable". They think I'm trying to break into my own account, so now I have to make the phonecall to my bank with my tail between my legs. I suck.

Saturday, September 6, 2003

07:48 PM

"Come with me if you want to live."

World Premiere of Sex Symbol, Mr. Popularity, and Vocal Personality, Jason Mraz's "You & I Both" during next Tuesday's The OC. Bank robbery, mistaken identity, a powder blue suit, and Broadway dances; what more can you possibly want? It's like my worlds collided.

Thursday, September 4, 2003

01:01 AM

"Sexy Boy" by Air

Really, I don't say much about politics because I don't think that I have enough knowledge and literature on the subjects to make an accurate assessment and opinion (although many people with less knowledge than myself feel that they do and may). But I have to say this, because as a born and bred California girl, this California recall is bullshit. None of the candidates have spoken up enough with issues that matter; specifically not one particular bodybuilder turn movie star. I really hope that Californians aren't stupid enough to vote based on star power, and by ignoring his frivolous ideas substantiated by nothing. They all talk about more money for education, less taxes, teaching anatomically correct human physiology to young children, etc. etc. But how exactly does one plan to dig a whole state out of billions of dollars of financial debt without income while providing a steady output? Taxing prostitution and gambling is not the answer, I'm sorry.

If anyone of those blowfish become the next governor, I would die.

Or move to New York.

Tuesday, September 2, 2003

11:11 PM

"Material Girl" by Madonna

I live in the best place to live. It's almost like the OC followed me, except we don't have our own TV show (yet).

Monday, September 1, 2003

12:22 AM

"Underneath" by Hanson

Some things are so familiar yet forgotten, that hearing them over again is like unearthing something deep inside the heart. As bitter as I get about babies and 3 year breaks between albums, I love Hanson. They will always be my adolescence; they will always be in my heart. They shaped my life and who I am today. Their influences goes for miles and miles, and even after it's become something that seems to be my own, the soul of the inspiration and motivation belongs to their breath.

I cried during "With You In Your Dreams" because I listened to that song a lot during my grandparents' incident two years ago. I just visited my grandfather's grave with my grandmother yesterday; because it's happened a few days over two years ago. August is just a terrible month; but tonight was a beautiful close.

I love Hanson for what they've inspired me to do; to find myself in writing, to find myself in art, and to find myself in music. It's a beautiful thing, and I'm going to take it so far. It would be nice one day, to be able to thank them face to face, for being one of my saving graces.

They are truly my first love; they were the first time I knew what it was like to be crazy in love. So when people ask, who was my first love -- I'm going to say, Isaac, Taylor, and Zac.

Setlist:
Strong Enough To Break
Where's The Love
River
Runaway Run
Summertime Blues
Rock N Roll Razorblade
Broken Angel (Zac solo)
Teach Your Children
When You're Gone
With You In Your Dreams
Underneath
Being Me (Isaac solo)
Always (Taylor zolo)
Penny & Me
Love Somebody To Know
Hey
You Never Know
MMMBop
Rip It Up
This Time Around
A Song To Sing (Encore)