Tuesday, August 31, 2004

06:02 PM

Living in suburbia is making me suicidal. I wish I could vomit out everything.

12:31 PM

Always a Minute Off

Timing sucks.

Whatever. I'm going to San Francisco next week on a road trip with Diana & Erin. Fuck you, life.

Monday, August 30, 2004

08:47 PM

More Soundtrack, Less Soundlost

In the tradition of tying songs to relationshipish things (see entries from last August), here are the latest two:

9. "Bathwater" by No Doubt

10. "Someone Like You" by Saba

06:55 PM

"I Just Don't Think I'll Ever Get Over You" by Colin Hay

The Garden State soundtrack is truly amazing; Garden State itself was alright. I really enjoyed the meticulous detail and the simple, honest narrative. It was really the ending that killed it for me; but maybe it's because I'm such a fucking pessimist.

However, I think the film was amazing because it made me want to make out with Zach Braff after the first half hour, so his purpose must be served. This is my favorite song off the album right now, as I got to know it fairly well in my 3+ hours of driving between here and school, trying to figure out this internship crap. I realized I have no idea what I want to do, after spending an hour scrolling through multitudes of job descriptions in every art related field. Everything just sounds so, boring. But the word freelance scares the shit out of me. Who do I talk to about this panic-because-I-have-no-clue-what-I-want-to-do?

It was also very discouraging to be walking through the white cement and fiberglass buildings of another UC where I'm just another number after going to school in a castle from a fairytale where everyone made the extra effort to know my name before I even stepped a foot on the cobblestone walkways. But I talked to a few of my fabulous British friends, and they kept me very in touch with all that is beautiful.

I guess all that's left is for me to make my life beautiful. It's all a matter of perspective; too bad I'm such a pessimist. If I can get all this internship stuff for Fall quarter sorted out soon, however, and have some time before the job actually starts...New York is only $220 away, and Seattle is only $280, and each would bring me to the company of good friends who evoke that beautiful, freewheeling, honest smile and laughter.

Friday, August 27, 2004

08:06 PM

The Virgin Suicides

I'm still pretty feverish and sick a week plus a few days later; I'm sure this is not a good thing. So I'm spending the night in reading The Virgin Suicides, and then perhaps starting Sex, Drugs, and Cocoa Puffs. I'm going to have coffee and watch Garden State with an old friend.

I also need to watch/rewatch the following films:
1) Garden State
2) Before Sunrise
3) French Kiss
4) Amelie
5) Napoleon Dynamite

A few books I read this summer that I would highly recommend:
- The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time by Mark Haddon
- One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel Garcia-Marquez
- The Remains of the Day by Kazuo Ishiguro

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

11:57 AM

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

I've been back for a few days, settling into my comfortable little groove in the plush pillows of California life. The transition was a lot easier than I had anticipated, but perhaps it was because of the drug induced haze my infectious body has been dragging through -- I'm sure you needed to know that.

There are a lot of things that need to be done, including the much-needed redesign of this site, and huge lists are being made of things I want to read, see, hear, and do. I'm overanticipating everything, and feeling great anxiety for it all. I'm scared about life.

It was really nice living in a castle from a fairytale for a summer, and starting to grasp the idea of the world being much larger than myself. It has been a nice summer, to be grossly understated.

*Site Updates: The Reading List & Girl

Also, before I share my summer memories with you, please:
Post a real memory of me.
It can be anything you want.

If we haven't met you can make something up, but state that it is fictional.

Monday, August 9, 2004

06:10 AM

Joyeux Anniversaire, Gina!

I just got back from Paris, the city of lights, love, and small dogs. I think I've found my city soulmate -- it is the most perfect metropolis in the world. The city sleeps in because nothing opens til 11am, and stays up late, even on Sundays. Croissants, crepes, and coffee; architecture, artists, and tree-lined streets; it was everything I thought it would be and more.

Anyway, I'm saving the bragging for when I get back -- this entry is for my charming, extraordinary twin sister whose wits and merits can match that of Paris -- Happy Birthday Gina! She is the most amazing girl I have ever known, and one of the best friends I have ever had. Je t'adore!

I've decided not to go back to the States after the program is over. Ever. Sometimes you've just got to live.