Friday, August 29, 2003

12:57 AM

"I've Got You Under My Skin" by Ella Fitzgerald

I thought it was a quiet night; but this one is for the kiddies.

Thursday, August 28, 2003

02:15 AM

"Falling For The First Time" by BNL

There are 25 more days until I move back to school; and I think I'm only working for one more week. I'm resisting all urges to call in for the last two shifts as they are shit. Instead of being negative about being stuck in this town, I am going to be my positive self. It's time for a revival of my optimism - I've been quite shit the last few months, sitting in a deep hole I dug myself.

But that isn't me, and that isn't the me I want people to know in the upcoming fall quarter. I need to be a real person, the real me. "And when real people fall down, they get right back up again and keep on walking."

So it's my goal to lose 5 lbs. in the next 25 days, by working out again & eating well. I'm also going to finish 2 paintings, and read three books: The Te of Piglet, Me Talk Pretty One Day, and Timequake. Because being Miss Misery can't go on.

Monday, August 25, 2003

11:17 PM

"You & I Both" by Jason Mraz

I just watched the video clip of the making of "You & I Both". The video looks amazing, corny, and hilarious. I can't wait to see Mr. Mraz & friends in a bank doing Broadway. So classic; and still so intertwined with my personal relationship with that song.

Went to Vegas for the weekend with friends and family for the MAGIC fashion convention. We made out like bandits with dozens and dozens of glossy magazines, shirts, underpants, etc. promotional paraphernalia. Me & the fashion industry are meant to be together, like peanut butter and chocolate.

Photo adventure soon.

Saturday, August 23, 2003

12:52 AM

"Love Ridden" by Fiona Apple

It was the VMAs circa 1997.

Hanson & Fiona Apple, and a few others, were up for Best New Artist.

At the time, I was infuriated that Fiona Apple won Best New Artist & even more infuriated with her acceptance speech.

But now, I understand and appreciate more than ever, her words: This world is bullshit.

Thursday, August 21, 2003

02:37 AM

"White Flag" by Dido

I love this song. It's haunting, sweet, and beautiful. Like Ms. Dido herself.

I think this summer lacked good music; much of which I left behind.

I'm fixing myself up with a shirt and a strand of pearls from Urban Outfitters instead of the shoes I wanted this summer. Mostly because the shoes (although on sale) do not come in my size in pink.

Who wants to go see Gregory Page on August 29 with me?

Wednesday, August 20, 2003

12:29 AM

"Smooth Operator" by Sade

I have a new armchair in my room in which I am in love with. It's from Ikea, and we are in love.

And I put up three new/old photo adventures on this happy occasion. They're from awhile ago, one is a train ride in October, the second is Monica & Laura's first visit, and the third is one of many days at the fair. Enjoy them. Leave comments.

Monday, August 18, 2003

03:32 AM

"Two Years Shy" by Jason & Jane

Started painting again; found fulfillment in that.

Had philosophical conversation with Irene tonight; to the extent in which we scared ourselves.

Visited Amy & paid homage to Marilyn Monroe in visits to various cemetaries in LA. Also drove by plenty of fraternity + sorority houses; enough to consider rushing.

Had dinner with too many people.

Am obsessed with pathetic.org.

Finished The Tao of Pooh, am currently working on The Te of Piglet. Find Taoism very interesting.

Back to work tomorrow; ho hum.

Friday, August 15, 2003

01:04 AM

"Got To Be Real" by Cheryl Lynn

My fabulous friend Christopher called today, and told me that he is making his dream come true. He is moving to New York to go to school, to live and be fabulous.

I am so excited for him.

"I'm definitely somebody, and you're kind of somebody. So you have to move here!"

When I go back to school, it is definitely going to be missing a bit of fabulousness without his presence.

In other news, I've become pathetic.

Wednesday, August 13, 2003

02:42 PM

"Beautiful Disaster" by Kelly Clarkson

Updated reading list; I finished The Sound of Waves a few days ago & am currently working on The Tao of Pooh.

Question: is anyone really interested in the photoadventures anymore? Because if not, I will just post them privately for my friends.

01:07 AM

"Cheek To Cheek" by Ella Fitzgerald & Louis Armstrong

I think I've always prided myself on the fact that I am a girl who knows what she wants. And now I am not. For some reason, I have lost my decision in my indecision. And even more so, I have lost my direction in life.

I don't know what I want to do anymore.
Art has always been on my mind.
My future, my dreams, and my fallback in one,
if you will.
When I was four,
and I said I wanted to be an artist when I grew up.
I wasn't kidding, folks.
Even when I was four, I knew what I wanted.
And now 15 years later, I have nothing.
So I worked ceaselessly
To this light at the end of the tunnel.

And now that I'm sitting on the perch
Of the rest of my life
Writing awkwardly and discordantly
On my insecurities.

All I know about what I want for now
for the future:
is a room full of love;
an apartment full of light and flowers,
and great furniture;
dinner parties with homemade placards
and homemade pie,
with friends of the past,
present, and future;
lots of friends to share the laughter,
lots of life to fill my nights;
a boyfriend with a guitar,
and a great sense of humor;
someday a little girl to make dresses for,
and a little boy to give great big hugs to -
I won't fail to teach him the importance
of the finer things in life
(such as opening the door,
manicures, and D&G);
a view of the ocean,
a view of New York City;
a heart that has been broken,
a heart that has been filled to burst,
and a heart that will always be cared for.

Is there a major for all that?

Sunday, August 10, 2003

12:11 AM

"No Doubling Back" by Jason Mraz

I spent the most perfect evening in the most perfect city in the world, surrounded by two of my best friends. On the eve of Monica's departure back to school in Colorado, we made the trip to Del Mar to catch a small slice of heavenly music. I forgot how much I missed San Diego until I was breathing in the ocean air and grinning underneath a clear night sky full of stars. Mr. San Diego himself helped out, a bit. Loved the piano solo of "0% Interest" and of course my current favorite, "No Doubling Back"; especially with the new band.

I saw lots of San Diego faces and friends, full of smiles and hugs. It was very nice. I miss it. I can't wait to go back in September, if not for the salty sea air and the coffeeshop shows, at least to make more new friends with big hearts and big hugs to give.

Hugs for you all too.

Saturday, August 9, 2003

02:07 PM

"On Love, In Sadness" by Jason Mraz

Happy Birthday Gina, the loveliest twin a girl could ever ask for!

(Does that mean it's my birthday too?)

Wish her lots of love and light, and everything bright.

Now I'm off to see the wizard, the wonderful wizard in San Diego.

Tuesday, August 5, 2003

11:51 PM

"Don't Leave The Light On Baby" by Belle&Sebastian

There was this one afternoon, lovely and hot. I was pulling out of my garage, dressed in full costume and slipping on sunglasses as I checked the rear view. Multi-tasking while in reverse, classic California. This strange man working for his church walks up to my window, and starts showing me pictures of teenagers recovering from drug abuse and such; teenagers sitting at tables doing crafts and such. "I'm not trying to sell you anything today," he says. I nodded frantically as I turned up the air conditioning. "I'm late for work," I said. "You don't have 5 or 10 dollars to spare on preventing teenage drug abuse?" He asked, frowning. "No," I replied, quite frankly. I think I have done my share on preventing drug abuse in myself and within my circle influence.

Like that, he backs off and hurled back, "Okay, well Jesus LOVES you." Like that. Like an insult, the greatest insult possible. Jesus LOVES me.

Shouldn't I be ashamed now?

01:23 AM

"Do I Do" by Stevie Wonder

An entry on reflection
of
every relationship;
     from fling to meaning:
described song by song
(songs forever entwined in that moment
that had so quickly passed through my short life),
     in chronological order:

1. "We're Going To Be Friends" by the White Stripes

2. "Last Dance" by Donna Summer; "All My Life" by K-Ci & JoJo

3. "Stronger" by Britney Spears

4. "Time After Time" by Cindy Lauper

5. "There Is A Light That Never Goes Out" by the Smiths; "The Luckiest" by Ben Folds; "No Doubling Back" by Jason Mraz; "You & I Both" by Jason Mraz

6. "Beautiful Stranger" by Madonna; "Objection (Tango)" by Shakira

7. "Running" by Jason Mraz; "Absolutely Zero" by Jason Mraz

8. "The Scientist" by Coldplay

Monday, August 4, 2003

11:18 AM

"Can I Be Used" by Switchfoot

Loves: Queer Eye For The Straight Guy, no more French class, and healthy cooking.

Hates: job and majors.

Saturday, August 2, 2003

06:58 PM

"The Rainbow Connection" (covered) by Jason Mraz

I went to the Sawdust Festival today; am now freely inspired to create and dream in order to mask the reality of the difficulties wrapping themselves into my life.

12:17 AM

"The Trouble With Love Is" by Kelly Clarkson

Interview by Gina
1. First and foremost, please describe your first ever Jason Mraz concert experience, because mine is coming up shortly!
A friend of mine and I were at a Dido/Travis concert about two and a half years ago; we made Travis t-shirts and wore silver alien antennae headbands on our heads (because of Dido's theme song for Roswell). We walked by a small side stage in the festival area of the venue; a man offered us free sunglasses from Levi's if we stayed and listened to Jason Mraz. I remember asking, "Do we have to stay for the whole thing?" He laughed. Then Jason & Toca played; amazing beautiful scats that made us stay - there were maybe 4 other people around. There was a gorgeous gay couple standing next to us, I remember them. Afterwards I got his demo CD, and he came up to us with cigarette in one hand and beer in the other and started talking to us. He was very funny and sweet, I don't remember what we talked about. We took a picture with him, and got his email address. Then we left, holding that moment from that concert experience. We even left in the middle of Dido. But even at that first listen, without ever hearing of him before, he was amazing. Think of how much better he has gotten since all that practice touring eh?

2. Which five bands/artists that you haven't yet seen in concert would you like to see this summer?
Liz Phair, Gregory Page, Goo Goo Dolls, Howie Day, and Norah Jones.

3. Do you think that labels (generalizations, assumptions, etc.) are stifling or that they help us to better understand ourselves?
I think labels are generally superfluous and trivial; little can label describe, and little can be described by a label. They were never really a part of my life.

4. If you could spend an entire day however you pleased, where would you be and what would you be doing?
San Diego; waking up around 11am and having Cocoa Puffs with soy milk for breakfast while watching Saved By The Bell on tv. Then the rest of the day would be spent shopping at terrific flea markets, lunch at a quaint Cuban restaurant, reading a great book underneath shade of lovely trees, and having dinner all in the company of great friends. I would spend the evening in a coffeeshop surrounded by friends and fantastic music.

5. Choose 7 songs that describe your life at this point in time.
"Sunscreen Song" by Baz Luhrman
"She Will Be Loved" by Maroon5
"Shoot The Moon" by Norah Jones
"Signed, Sealed, Delivered" by Stevie Wonder
"Why Can't I" by Liz Phair
"Why Georgia" by John Mayer
"0% Interest" by Jason Mraz

What YOU do:
1 -- Leave a comment, saying you want to be interviewed.
2 -- I will respond; I'll ask you five questions.
3 -- You'll update your journal with my five questions, and your five answers.
4 -- You'll include this explanation.
5 -- You'll ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed.