Wednesday, July 31, 2002

01:43 AM

"Sleeping To Dream" by Jason Mraz

Today a guy at work told me I looked like I was at least 20. That brightened my day (if not that, the conversation that followed did). I like talking to people who have something to say. Nothing bothers me more than small talk (after a period of acknowledging each other's presence). Oh and when Luis and Sheridan met today...okay. Two things brightened up my day.

Tuesday, July 30, 2002

02:37 AM

"On Love, In Sadness" by Jason Mraz

I just got home from my friend Irene's house. We just sat and talked on the floor of her brother's room for three hours. The more excited I am to move away and start off fresh and clean, the more I come to appreciate the friends I have and how much they've been there for me. When someone knows you well, there is no comfort like that.

Three more points:
1. Goldmember was not worth my $6.50. Mike Meyers why do you let me down so?
2. Thank you. I think you know why.
3. I think "Ann needs a new haircut" time is coming up soon...and I'm leaning towards dramatic change. Sweet Home Alabama style?

Monday, July 29, 2002

08:15 PM

"Don't Let's Start" by Common Rotation

Today I had another, legitimate, day off :) I was visited by the ghost of Christmas Present herself, Jinra, and I met the eighth wonder of the world, Raye! We ate, browsed used book stores (where I didn't find anything I wanted), and I showed them the way to enlightenment (in the form of one of their favorite band member's day jobs). But of course, by clicking on the image above of the Tuna sandwich that almost ate me for lunch, you will get a small glimpse of our adventures. (For your convenience it is in a much smaller package - 9 images & smaller file sizes).

I also got my credit card bill for the month. Just four words: Confessions Of A Shopaholic.

Now I'm all for Austin Powers in Goldmember.

Sunday, July 28, 2002

01:27 AM

"Did A Verse End?" by Common Rotation

Am feeling particularly inspired and in love.

But I always am after a great show.

Saturday, July 27, 2002

03:02 AM

"Stay With Me" by The Velvet Teen

Work tonight was a paradigm that my life has been in the past year: rocky and full of unpleasant, unexpected events one after another - yet underlined by my perpetually perky & persistent optimistic nature.

Friday, July 26, 2002

02:37 AM

"Older Lover Undercover" by Jason Mraz

Life is good. As described by a friend, my life entails: work, beach, work, friends, work, pool, work, bonfire, work. I got a package in the mail today from Jason Mraz - with "Sold Out (In Stereo)". Wheeeee I've been listening to it all day.

Today I made more chocolate chip cookies & snickerdoodles. I started two new paintings. I'm finishing up two more. & I'm almost finished making Gina's package.

I added links & updated Girl - I finished Cause Celeb (finally).

AND I worked. I'm so productive :)

Alex: that never ceases to amuse me
Alex: the fact that we just talk online
Ann: yet we have such great sex?
Alex: yeah!

Wednesday, July 24, 2002

12:24 AM

"Different Kind of Love Song" by Cher

Eyes are still burning from chlorine. Spent about 75% of day submerged in chlorine water. Nice evening spent in hot tub with friends under a beautiful moon.

So that was my first time calling in sick.

Tuesday, July 23, 2002

02:47 AM

"After An Afternoon" by Jason Mraz

I am so tired of work. It interferes with my fun time. Stupid Ticketmaster not functioning between the hours of 2AM and 6AM - and I placed an order at 2:02a. Why must you spite me so?? *shakes fist*

Justin started reading about divinology and he decided to read my cards this afternoon. He told me three things, essentially:
a) A young man in my life is going to die young.
b) I am going to have a lot of trouble with love.
c) Albeit the above mentioned, I am going to have lots and lots of sex throughout my lifetime.

I didn't need cards to tell me that.

Laura wrote a personal ad about me, a la a B-52 song:
"Hi, my name is Ann, I'm a Scorpio, a crochet-maniac, and I looooove puppies!"

Jason pinned down my type to the T for me (as apparently, he knows me better than me): witty, guitar-playing, folksy, Abercrombie&Fitch model. Okay, so God, now that I know what I want - send me one now!

Actually now that I think about it...God did send me one while at work today. After I sold this lovely boy a hat, my diva co-worker Anthony said (in flaming boy fashion) "He was totally crunching on you!"

Do I want to be crunched? (Fine, so work was not so bad).

P.S. You are still the whisper on my lips.

P.P.S. Brevity is the soul of wit, Ann.

Monday, July 22, 2002

12:05 AM

"Porcelain" by Moby

Today we went to the beach, and it was beautiful. I baked chocolate chip cookies and snickerdoodles. They were good :) I took some pictures, but I don't feel like fixing them up right now. I totally wiped out on a boogie board, and so did my top... so I flashed a nice stretch of the West Coast. It's okay though, I've got nice boobs. Beautiful bonfire, lots of food, fun friends, and lots of laughing.

It was a beautiful night. (Sans that whole boob thing. And even that wasn't so bad, as it's happened before. I need to get a new swim suit.)

And now I'd reeeeeeallly like to make out with Moby. He is so sexy.

Friday, July 19, 2002

11:34 PM

"Le Moulin" from the Amelie soundtrack

I had a really nice day. Cathy, Bi, and I went to Balboa Pier and took a sunset cruise around the bay. We had a nice little narration on all the pretty beach houses and who owned them - and drove up to a bouy with lots of sea lions lounging. We took b&w photobooth pictures. Then we had dinner at The Old Spaghetti Factory. It was a cold, but really nice night. So, there are things to do around here.

03:56 PM

"Running" by Jason Mraz

You know what I'd like to see? Even more than all my favorite bands in the world and all my favorite people in the world? Even more than Episode III? Even more than Taylor Hanson? Even more than your mom?

PAYROLL GET MY PAYCHECK RIGHT.

01:09 AM

"It's Over Now" by Neve

Because I had to make myself feel better about a quiz I took: I made a quiz about myself! Time for all you visitors to give back and take some time to learn some more about me.

Thursday, July 18, 2002

02:47 AM

"If All We Had Were Stars" by Ben & Jason

I am very full, my mom cooked tonight. Weeee.

I had a fun day out with Jinra in downtown Fullerton, and I bought a 70s peasant skirt from a vintage store. Now I'm sleepy & watching The Royal Tenenbaums.

Photo Adventure from today out with Jinra.

I think if I were to have children, I'd like to raise them like Etheline did - but minus the whole Royal part. I'd like a incredible husband who makes a great dad.

Or I'll just stay a perpetually happy single girl. Either way, my life looks good.

Wednesday, July 17, 2002

01:26 AM

"Screaming Infidelities" by Dashboard Confessional

Ask and you shall receive: the B-52s, Save Ferris, the Bangles, and of course - the darling little John Mayer in August. Fun music, live - that's what my summer needs.

I'm running errands and trying to be a human being during daylight instead of the sleeping giant. I bought Amelie, The Royal Tenenbaums, and Ash's "Free All Angels". The Ash CD was an impulse buy...it was only $9.99! Okay...so was The Royal Tenenbaums. All I was looking for was Amelie - I'm so delighted that it's on DVD. Now she's travelsize so I can bring her into the homes and hearts of every single person I know.

Also what my summer needs: some domesticity and creativity on my part. I'm crocheting myself a shawl like the one I got @ Urban Outfitters for too much money...

I'm having neurotic, jealous episodes in my head. I feel like I need to scream sometimes, because I just tear myself up on the inside. I'm like the mother that drives children to therapy for the rest of their lives - except I'm the children too. I'm just too insecure and jealous about things I can't control.

But just like everything else, this too, shall pass.

Tuesday, July 16, 2002

01:52 AM

"Curbside Prophet" by Jason Mraz

"It's better if we all know each other, it's a little bit easier for us to take off our clothes...which we have planned for later in the set...not quite yet, not quite yet."

- Jason Mraz, live

Mraz makes me giggle.

I need to see some live music some time soon. I also need to see some familiar faces. And hear some familiar voices. I need to stop working - I hate guest service. Most of the guests can...well, you all know where they can go and do. Not the people I'm working with of course, they are very nice and sweet.

There are three types of people who go to Disneyland (excuse me if this sounds discriminatory, as I am just basing it on my three weeks of experience):
1. Tourists who speak English with an endearing accent.
2. Hispanics who don't speak English.
3. White trash who don't speak English.

AHHHHHRRRRRGGHHHH I need some time off.

Sunday, July 14, 2002

03:16 PM

"Shining Light" by Ash

Yesterday was spent acquiring two new purses, three pairs of argyle socks, and three shirts (two of which are the same but in two different colors). And all I really wanted to do was return a tank top.

I finished A Clockwork Orange and I started Cause Celeb & picked up Prozac Nation again - except I keep leaving it in the car.

Ugh it's hot and I don't want to work anymore.

Saturday, July 13, 2002

02:47 AM

"Hit Or Miss" by Newfound Glory

Today was the day.

The day everything boiled down to. The silver lining on the worst year of my life. All the stress, all the tears, all the heartache, all the lack of sleep, all the endless nights of studying by the dim glow of a desklamp, all those hours logged in front of a glowing pixellated screen - most importantly, all the stress that has probably shortened my life by a decade - has paid off.

I passed my AP tests! I've even been awarded AP Scholar! I'm a fucking genius, I'm so rad! *does a little cheer for myself* Quite honestly, I didn't know how I did on them, and I didn't think I was going to pass most of them - and the biggest surprise of all was Art History.

So did all that stress and lack of sleep studying pay off? FUCK YEAH.

On a sidenote - a Muppet with AIDS?

Friday, July 12, 2002

01:28 AM

"Manic Monday" by the Bangles

I have a really bad headache and I've just got home from an 8 hour shift. I've had 8 hour closing shifts the past couple of nights...I'm ready for my day off. I'm getting used to work & I like it. I'm getting used to the idea of thousands of dollars passing through my hands in a few hours - and me not getting to keep any of it. I had a great time tonight with the people I worked with - the lead let us take an off the record break to watch the fireworks (btw Tinkerbell is a man sometimes) & the stockboy was telling me about a pomeranian he used to have. He bought a Louis Voutton collar for it - ahhhh! Something I'm tempted to buy for Lucy at the end of the summer. I love my dog.

I worked out the whole payroll discrepancy - they forgot to pay me for 8 hours! &*@#%@#$%!! But the scheduler who helped me out was so rad about it.

I'm so tired, but I'm almost done with A Clockwork Orange. Tomorrow I need to go down to the community college and get my transcripts sent for my past summer classes. So, this is my life.

Thursday, July 11, 2002

02:12 AM

"Just A Girl" by No Doubt

find out what you are here

02:04 AM

"Sleeping To Dream" by Jason Mraz

Sometimes I want my life to be like a Jason Mraz song - wrapped up in the beauty of love and someone else.

Stupid company did not pay me for 7 hours of working last week. I'm going to call them up tomorrow and turn that mother out. Or attempt to anyway. I'm definitely keeping this coat now. HAHA UP YOURS!

I seriously need to find a music swapping engine before I do something drastic. (No new music makes Ann a very boring girl).

Wednesday, July 10, 2002

02:31 AM

"Curbside Prophet" by Jason Mraz

(Time for a list!)
By the end of this week, I will:

1. Finish reading A Clockwork Orange.
2. Make & send a package to Gina cause she's so rad.
3. CLEAN MY ROOM.
4. Find a replacement for audiogalaxy (any suggestions?)
5. Paint.
6. Draw.
7. Sleep earlier, wake up before noon.
8. Write eMails.
9. Work out.
10. Weigh myself.
11. Not have spent my whole paycheck for the week yet.

Tuesday, July 9, 2002

01:58 AM

"Digital Love" by Daft Punk (still)

alex: ok
alex: computer lesson time
alex: i want you to look at the back of your computer
alex: where all your cables plug in and what not
alex: look at your network card and look at your modem
ann: which one is which?
alex: notice that the jack(s) on your modem card is/are noticeably smaller than the one(s) on your network card
alex: well, since you're on cable internet
alex: the one with the cable coming out of it is your network card
alex: and the modem shouldnt have a cord going into it
ann: ....
alex: you make me sad..

01:03 AM

"Digital Love" by Daft Punk

Plenty of love flowing my way today, happy as a bee in a field of wildflowers. I was reminded that my life is full of people who make me happy.

I woke up after a very nice dream. That's always a great way to start off a day.

It was my day off today - an even better way to start a day.

I saw My Big Fat Greek Wedding and it was very funny. Makes me want to get married.

Now I feel like dancin'.

Sunday, July 7, 2002

03:12 AM

"No Myth" by Michael Penn

3/4 of today was pretty horrible - my mom decided to surprise me with a visit to the dentist for not one, not two, not three - but FIVE "small" (according to the dentist) fillings. So small, in fact, that he decided I didn't need novocaine. I didn't even know I had anymore teeth to be filled. I can still feel the drilling into my gums for "small" infractures. Now my teeth are going to be uber sensitive to hot and cold...and just about everytime I open my mouth. :(

My mom wanted to go shopping today...so I spent more of my money. I think I've already started spending this week's paycheck. In my defense, everything I bought was on sale (at A&F and Hollister) - and buying a pair of jeans at Hollister cheered me up tons - I fit into a perfect size 0! That was bonus karma points.

So then I go into work, feeling pretty gross because of the whole dental experience, and they decide to extend me to 2 AM. (Honestly, this has to be illegal along some lines...I'm not 18 yet!) I'm stuck in a cold cold room editing photos for a few hours (which actually wasn't bad, as I didn't have to deal too much with the not so pleasant leads in the area). I really hate working in Tomorrowland.

However, at the end of the night a pretty negative day was turned positive by a friendly familiar face and a friendly familiar song. Two things I can't help but grin about. I realized my emptyness could probably be fulfilled by lots of friendly familiar faces.

Saturday, July 6, 2002

02:10 AM

"For Nancy (Cos It Already Is)" by Pete Yorn

Materialism & vanity at my very core. This one is a quick one...only six images to download this time :)

Friday, July 5, 2002

11:18 PM

"The Radio Still Sucks" by the Ataris

Oh dear lord...there's an article about emo kids in Seventeen.

Sigh.

(Maybe I shouldn't be admitting that I read Seventeen).

09:18 PM

"Somebody's Baby" by Phantom Planet

Ahhhhh all that being nice to people and dealing with perpetuous questions about bathrooms and souveniors have finally paid off...in the form of five lovely hours this afternoon with my best friend. Cathy & I went shopping and I spreeeeed. I had lots of fun...and I think I sufficiently spent my first paycheck. Spending my own money is liberating...spending my own money on a gold Visa is liberating fun. Summer is finally fun. Now I just need a nice cute boy to spend my time with, is that too much to ask for?

Thursday, July 4, 2002

12:55 PM

silence

Have a great 4th everyone - if anyone is dropping by the Happiest Place on Earth, I'll be working in Adventureland so come say hello as I spend my 4th of July selling the last little pieces of my soul. (Or come stalk me for the rest of the evening - nothing makes the time pass like paranoia).

02:45 AM

"In My Place" by Coldplay

I'm feeling so empty.

Over $5000 passed through my hands in the last eight hours, and none of it was mine to keep.

I had a conversation that left no words but an empty bitterness in my head for the last few hours.

I just let the moment pass me by. And I walk alone. Maybe it's just because I know that when I'm sized up to the competition, I really just don't measure up. There's nothing remotely attractive or admirable about me - and I am so painfully concious of it. I know everything about a person is supposed to be in her state of mind - but I don't believe it. How is it that I talk so confidently while walking so conciously (self-conciously, that is)?

At the same time, I'm practically screaming out to be noticed and loved. Even my calendar taunts me: "Make time in your life for romance." I wish there was something to make the time for.

I don't know why this is hitting me so hard lately - maybe it's the weather, the time of year, the lack of interaction with other people now that school is over - and I'm finding time to linger on the subject. I just want to believe that love is real - and that I could be part of that 1% of the "lucky people" in the population. Maybe not now, but I want something that feels like that right now. Something I can believe in.

Or quite simply...just something to make me unadulteratedly happy. I want something that makes me smile at the thought of him, something at which I can't help but keep grinning about. Maybe I'm looking for too much in someone right now - which is why I'm left empty handed right now.

I'm just too full of thoughts and words right now - most of which I'm not sure are coming across as articulately as I'd like. I was just filling up pages of notebooks in my head in the shuttle on the way to the parking lot after work. And now I'm flipping through empty pages.

Maybe it was a good idea that I didn't call you tonight (even though I miss hearing your voice). A lot of things I've got to learn to handle on my own.

Wednesday, July 3, 2002

03:48 PM

"Save Yourself" by Sense Field

Okay so this work thing is a sick cycle - I got home around 2am again yesterday and by the time I wake up I have enough time to eat, shower, and go back to work. Hurray!

I did get to see The Importance of Being Earnest yesterday and it was very cute :) Colin Firth and Rupert Everett in one movie - oh, be still my palpitating heart.

Monday, July 1, 2002

10:45 PM

"Can't Help Falling In Love" by Elvis Presley

I saw Lilo & Stitch tonight and it was so cute :) I cried two times during the movie. I'm such a silly girl.