Tuesday, March 30, 2004
08:12 PM
"The World's Not Falling Apart" by Dar Williams
Some people need to grow the fuck up.
Monday, March 29, 2004
01:38 PM
"I Can't Go For That" (covered) by Jason Mraz
I think I get along better with boys than with girls; girls just have a lot more bullshit and are catty, and I'm tired of putting up with it. Then again, relationships with boys are easy yet more complicated at the same time...Fuck it, I hate everyone.
01:23 AM
"Wonderwall" (covered) by Ryan Adams
Updated To Do:
- Getty & LA date with Danielle
- schooling Danielle in Sex and the City
- OCMA with my mom
- being vaccinated like a puppy :(
- Colorado
- finish reading 3 books
- write review for Kitchen Stories
- write review for new Dressy Bessy album
- more beach time
- bookstore visit As it turns out, to do all these things, I also need sleep. Pshh overrated.
01:18 AM
"The Kiss" by Tristan Prettyman
I have been awake for 21 hours. Not cool.
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
01:02 AM
"Such Great Heights" by the Postal Service
I hear this song every other song on the radio...anyway, spring break down:Did:
- Getty
- Film preview: Kitchen Stories
- Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
- beach
- time with Cathy
- Justin's Birthday celebration
- family time
- new Buffalo Exchange
- time with Jinra
- writing daily
- coffee with Diana
- picked up beautiful portraits from Laura
To Do:
- Getty & LA date with Danielle
- schooling Danielle in Sex and the City
- OCMA with my mom
- being vaccinated like a puppy :(
- Colorado
- finish reading 3 books
- write review for Kitchen Stories
- write review for new Dressy Bessy album
- more beach time
- bookstore visit
12:50 AM
"Wonderwall" (covered) by Ryan Adams
I met with one of my friends from high school for coffee tonight. Well really, passion iced tea for me and hot chocolate for her because we both need to get up early tomorrow. But I adore her, I simply adore her. She is one of my favorite people to have a conversation with, ever, and I never really talk to her enough. We see each other about three or four times a year, and she really is the most interesting, lively person you can ever talk to. She sorta made me miss high school, although neither of us would consent to talking to more than five people from high school now, because I miss seeing wonderful people like her everyday. It makes our conversations even more wonderful though, because we don't see each other and we lead totally different lives, yet we can still come together, giggle and talk for hours on end into the night (or until they kick us out). So then I stopped missing high school because everyone else sucked ass.
My point, I suppose, is just that my life is something to be appreciated. (As is yours, I'm sure.) Remember: surround yourself with the people who treat you well, and in turn, treat others well. Because you deserve to be treated well.
Friday, March 19, 2004
11:03 PM
"Troubled Times" by Fountains of Wayne
On my drive home today, I (re?)discovered this song, and I really love it. Too bad Fountains of Wayne is just now getting nominated for Best New Artist...Also too bad: I gave myself an ear infection! Hurray! Stress induced incubated diseases are great, I'm just hoping it doesn't turn into pneumonia like Lindsey's did. I would rather spend my spring break lying at the beach reading, then lying in my bed dying.
SPRING BREAK GIRLS GONE WILD 2004 yay! AKA, everyone else gone wild as I withdraw further into my hermithood. I turned down Rosarito for this; I am going to be splendidly delighted with the free, alone time I have to figure some things out in my head. To breathe, to visit the Picasso to Pollock exhibit, to disregard anything academic/future related, and to be me. Recommend some films & songs for the journey; I have my fill of books for now.
Spring Break Reading List
1. Franny and Zooey, J.D. Salinger
2. Lullaby, Chuck Palahniuk
3. End of the Affair, Graham Greene
+ a couple more from my pre-Cambridge reading list.
We'll see.
Thursday, March 18, 2004
12:22 PM
"God Moves Through You" by Jason Mraz
Lindsey and I are geriophiles! Whee! We <3 dirty old men!In other news, I have sooo much to study, it's almost funny so I'm laughing through my tears! It's actually quite scary how much I don't care -- is this what happens after you've been going to school for 15 years? I do care. It's disgusting that I still care.
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
06:55 PM
"Leaning Against the Wall" by Kings of Convenience
What is important to you?
01:47 PM
"Perfect Memory" by Remy Zero
Alice: I was just wondering if you could tell me which way I should go.Cheshire Cat: That all depends on where you want to get to.
Alice: Well it doesn't really matter...
Cheshire Cat: Then it really doesn't matter which way you go!
Common dialogue in my head.
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
09:51 PM
"Paper Bag" by Fiona Apple
Oh dear. When is everything ever going to be okay? I think I'm going to change my major, again.
Arghhh what is wrong with me? Why am I never satisfied? Why do I run in circles? Why why why? How do I know I'm making the right choices? I don't want to fuck up, with the spread of opportunity available to me at this point.
I have been told that I am being fed by my fears this year; I have been told that I attract the negative thoughts that I have; I am being told too much -- and too little about how to get through this.
Good advice: let yourself not be defined by what is happening to you, but to be defined by how you're going to get through it.
How am I going to get through it?
Monday, March 15, 2004
08:38 PM
Happy Birthday to my Mom!
Friday, March 12, 2004
07:05 PM
While waiting for laundry...
The Friday Five!1. What was the last song you heard?
"Sucker" by John Mayer
2. What were the last two movies you saw?
In America and 50 First Dates
3. What were the last three things you purchased?
Pink scantrons, a silver Sharpie (!), and a sweatshirt
4. What four things do you need to do this weekend?
Study for poetry, celebrate Mom's birthday, be the subject of a portrait project, study everything in sight.
5. Who are the last five people you talked to?
Meg, Melanie, Jin, Elisa, Lindsey
Thursday, March 11, 2004
10:53 PM
"Falling Is Like This" by Ani DiFranco
Jin and I are having a good long conversation, in which I'm mostly talking, but she said that firsts are overrated. I agree, and then we came to a consensus that some firsts are overrated.First boyfriend = overrated.
First love = not.
First kiss = overrated.
First good kiss = not.
05:35 PM
"Summer Breeze" by Jason Mraz
If I could only eat one thing for the rest of my life, and that one thing were Cinnamon Toast Crunch, then I think I would lead a very satisfactory life.What is your cereal weapon of choice?
12:06 PM
"When It Rains" by Tristan Prettyman
I am convinced the salad I'm eating is composed of clovers. The dining halls are plotting to turn me into a bunny; which would explain the multitude of bunny rabbits on campus...If you never hear from me again after this, and two years later CNN runs a headline "University of California Turns Students into RABBITS While Charging Their Parents Exorbiant, Exponentially Rising Tuition Costs", then you know what happened to me.
Be nice to your neighborhood rabbits.
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
10:56 PM
"Galaxy" by Jason Mraz
I feel like vomitting. My stomach is twisting and turning in such a manner that I expect it to create a universe within soon. My head, my head is vacuous space that somehow managed to find a way to squish and squabble what little brain is in there. I've been carrying this headache for a few days now; how many I lost count. Today, the sun was yanked away from me like a mother from her child (who is who?), and it only amplified the situation. I wonder how I will survive a summer in England, home of the grey and sunless.What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger and more bitter.
What do you do when God moves through you?
Tuesday, March 9, 2004
02:19 PM
That Summer Breeze...
The weather being so gorgeous and perfect as it's been the past couple days, I can't but help be less broody and pissy. My Vitamin D catalyzation is going into overdrive, and it just makes me happy to have more endorphins racing around in my system.Aside from the weather-induced joy, I read an old journal entry that included the four things my AP English teacher left us with on the last day of high school. It was such great advice, and the one that particularly sticks out to me is: Treat others well, and surround yourself with people who treat you well because you deserve to be treated well.
Thnk about that, and also this from the oh-so-ever impressive sage that is John Mayer
I wish that I was a bong hit
You'd let me in and you would love every minute
And tell the room the things I did to you...
Have a great afternoon :)
Sunday, March 7, 2004
06:08 PM
"All I Need" by Air
It was the most gorgeous day we've had all year, and that's all everybody can talk about. It was like summer just arrived. No need to bustle through that fickle spring, with its showers and its blooming. It's summer and it arrived today. It doesn't mean it will stay for long, or at all -- it was just a much needed summer day in the gloomy cold of late.Too bad I still feel like shit, people are still assholes, et al.
Thursday, March 4, 2004
11:15 AM
"Stuck" by Stacie Orrico
My head is this empty, pulsating mess of grey matter. I suspect my brain is also some parts crazy glue for really terrible pop songs that sneak through my ears when I'm particularly vulnerable (i.e. shopping). The verses of said pop song will echo off the empty walls in my head until I go crazy from being unable to identify the songs. This is one of them.
Wednesday, March 3, 2004
10:51 AM
"Showdown" by Britney Spears
I went to Britney Spears' last night.
Oh ho ho, yes I did.And it was hott.
Tuesday, March 2, 2004
12:32 PM
"Bare" by Matt Nathanson
It is not a question of apathy or passion.
It is a question of passion or death.
11:00 AM
"Future Boy" by Turin Brakes
My goose is cooked.
Monday, March 1, 2004
12:47 AM
"Wonderwall" (covered) by Ryan Adams
After hearing Gina rave about this song for weeks (okay, one week), I decided to find it. It is gorgeous and beautiful and everything that is good and right with the world, esp. music. It feels good to have faith in music again.I got a new cell phone, but as my friend Jin kindly pointed out, really right now it's just a camera and not a phone for it does not receive nor send calls. It will take a day or two to set up, apparently -- I hate cell phones (though I feel vulnerable and naked without one).
I also discovered liquid eyeliner, pears in salad, and free jeans at Old Navy while Cathy was visiting this weekend. Although I did not discover a better way to fit two people on a twin bed (without spooning). It was an amazing weekend, full of my favorite things: shopping, food, best friend, friends, new cell phones, family, good parties, pictures, make up, good music, no homework -- although it could have used a helluva lot more sleep.
