Monday, March 31, 2003

09:21 PM

"Summer Breeze" (covered) by Jason Mraz

A warm breeze is softly slipping through the blinds, seductively gracing my bare neck. The evening sky is so beautifully clear and sparkling, moonless and quiet. Everything feels fresh and new, while old and comfortable.

It must be spring.

Saturday, March 29, 2003

12:38 PM

"Sing" by Travis

When things are really fucked up, how do you deal with that? How do you find peace in a situation so sick and bizarre, and silently filtering your mind? How do you come out of it honestly okay?

Thursday, March 27, 2003

11:41 PM

"Ann Don't Cry" by Pavement

Adam introduced me to Pavement tonight, specifically this song. I've always wanted a song about me because I am an egotistical, shallow bitch: this is the next best thing. It's a very pretty, sweet, sad song. It's beautiful.

Sometimes I wonder if life is like those horribly slow movies: something like Lovely and Amazing. Where the most horrible part of the movie is that it moves so slowly and so quietly, without a soundtrack to segue scenes without dialogue.

Wednesday, March 26, 2003

01:09 AM

"Beautiful" (covered) by Jason Mraz

Spring break is slow and lovely. And you are lovely. The Mraz show on Monday night was amazing. I'm so excited to see him at least two more times before the school year is over. There's something unique and articulate about each show. In short: life is lovely and amazing.

Friday, March 21, 2003

03:24 PM

"Toxic Girl" by Kings of Convenience

I was just rereading my archives and realized that I was teenybopper, even when I thought I had outgrown the teenybopper. I don't think I express myself very well in text...or is that a sign that I express myself too well?

Well, anyway I realized how tedious the entries that were tied close to my life were - so I like the forum I take now. Ambiguous, and on love.

I'm DONE WITH FINALS. My poli sci final only slightly molested me, but in the end I took that mother down. Now it's GIRLS GONE WILD SPRING BREAK 2003 WEEEEEEEE!

12:31 AM

"Imaginary Love" by Rufus Wainwright

In my complete and utter rebellion against my final tomorrow, I've decided to fall in love with Conor Oberst.

What does that have to do with my final?

Wouldn't you like to know.

Okay, it has nothing to do with it. But a friend pointed out Conor Oberst looks like an anorexic version of the other love of my life, Jake Gyllenhaal. This is good for when I become a polygamist. My friends have pointed out that I have a trend in boys I crush on. Do they have dark hair and could be potentially gay? Then I must love them.

Thursday, March 20, 2003

11:33 PM

"Give It Away" by Zero 7

ann: he is adorable and should marry me
jinra: aww
ann: or should be my friend.
jinra: with benefits?

09:36 PM

"Brick" by Ben Folds Five

Some things always come around full circle kids, always know that.

No hay banda.

03:14 PM

Amelie soundtrack

Hmm speaking of the Amelie soundtrack, I think I will add that to my list of CDs I want to buy. I'm going back to the habit of buying CDs - but only ones that are really important. Really, which girl doesn't need three copies of Waiting For My Rocket To Come? In my defense, I only kept one - I gave one to my roommate and another to a friend.

I was thinking about my spring break and playing "which movie is this song from" with my roommate...we were discussing deeper subjects, but I'm sure I will explore them further on annplified.com when I am deviously avoiding my paper.

02:40 AM

"I Don't Love Anyone" by Belle & Sebastian

This one is for Adam.

I loved all the movies I watched, each in their own way, and some slightly more than others.

Loved loved loved Fight Club. I can't believe no one said anything to me about it before. It's an artistically amazing movie. I love it. It freaks me out. I love it.

Seven was disgusting, disturbing, and beautiful in all its aspects. I think I've discovered the secret to making scary movies not scary: when the psychopathic killer is also the middle aged pedophile father of your neighbor.

Mullholland Drive...I still don't agree that all that lesbianism was necessary. And I kind of hate David Lynch's work. But like everyone else who hates David Lynch, I must agree that he truly knows what he's doing.

The Good Girl...was mostly just amazing because of Jake Gyllenhaal. The acting was a little impressive, but overall landed a little stale in my head. I need to watch it again because I missed the first half hour.

Oh my film studies teacher last quarter would be so proud I watched Mullholland Drive.

Wednesday, March 19, 2003

04:34 PM

"Symphony No. 41 in C Major (Jupiter)" by Mozart

Since my SAT score is higher than our current president's, I think I should be able to rule over my own life. And my first order of business is to disspell this final + paper I have on Friday.

Tuesday, March 18, 2003

10:19 PM

"Love Is Real" (covered) by Jason Mraz

I NEED TO STOP GETTING FAT.

THIS CORPULENT ASS NEEDS TO STOP CORPULENTING!

And also, movies to watch over spring break:

1. Moonlight Mile
2. Lovely and Amazing
3. October Sky
4. the first half hour of The Good Girl
5. the Back to the Future trilogy
6. Breakfast at Tiffany's

07:16 PM

"At The Stars" by Better Than Ezra

I saw: Fight Club, Seven, Mullholland Drive, and The Good Girl in the last week. I'm expanding my film knowledge again. It's bad when your mom has seen more movies in the last year than you have.

Sunday, March 16, 2003

02:06 AM

"Mad World" by Gary Jules

"Tell me, please, exactly how does one suck a fuck?" - Donnie Darko

Friday, March 14, 2003

04:00 PM

"Rocketman" covered by Jason Mraz

My suitemates and I just watched Jason Mraz's video for "The Remedy"...it is so good. So classic Mraz. Except for that whole corny computer generated neighborhood cruising. Why would that happen? Why?

He's such a geek and I love it!

Today's a happy day. I wrote and rewrote and revised 26 pages in the few days. I rule. It was all due today, so I'm off for a week until next Friday. I'm studying for International Relations until then.

I feel like such a teenybopper. So following suit...Happy Birthday Taylor Hanson & Albert Einstein!

Thursday, March 13, 2003

03:18 PM

"I Love Paris" by Ella Fitzgerald

Playing with my digital camera instead of playing with my paper.

11:54 AM

"The Remedy" (live) by Jason Mraz

Mmmm this song live is like butter to your biscuit soul.

I'm trying to step back and not take myself so seriously. I'm taking a breath between the novel I'm apparently supposed to be writing for this university. It's all an evil ploy...their analytical writing program is so devious in that it demands a novel from each student by the end of each quarter so that the university may fill their lopsided library.

It's been brought to my attention that somehow without my concious knowledge, about 80% of my guy friends are gay. I have the quintessential gay best friend. You know, I got what I wished for - too bad I wished for a gay best friend in 8th grade. Does this mean I'll get my cute white boy with a guitar 5 years too?

Tuesday, March 11, 2003

11:27 PM

"Stand By Me" covered by Jason Mraz

Something I've been thinking about lately: in the manner of being completely self absorbed, I think I've realized my issue with boys. I think it's a matter of that I'm completely self destructive and that I will try my best to destroy every potential relationship coming my way. Why? I suppose it's either a defense mechanism or a test. I won't get hurt if you don't pass the test: how much bullshit can one boy really take? And the sick thing is that I didn't even realize all that I've been doing until I realized all I've been doing. It was all completely subconcious. I am one effed up girl.

Oh My God. Jason Mraz covering "Stand By Me" is just amazing. When it came on my playlist, my roommate and I both dropped what we were doing to listen in awe. It's so beautiful. And somehow, just what I needed.

I've been working on my Theater Design project all day. One more full color costume sketch, some gluing down of walls, one page description...and I should be done. Then I'm going to write one page in one of my ten page papers.

Monday, March 10, 2003

11:29 PM

"Girl Like You" by Pete Yorn

My favorite pencil says:

The General Store Co-Op
Is cheaper than your mom
And that's really cheap

07:08 PM

"The Jump Off" by Lil Kim

So I finally figured out a way around the fact that WS_FTP is on strike from me as long as I'm on Resnet. So I'll be uploading pictures and art and prose and the such when I get around to it. For the time being: here's a emo self portrait of myself. It was good therapy.

I'll be reorganizing the photographs and art section soon.

Sunday, March 9, 2003

09:06 PM

"Punk Rock Princess" by Something Corporate

you are the "I love sex" button


Which Mraz-related item are you?

06:20 AM

"Unfold" by Jason Mraz

I'm suffering from severe anxiety. I can't sleep. I haven't slept all night. I don't know what's wrong with me. My makeup is smudged and my hair is stringy, but I can't sleep. Or bring myself to clean myself up. I feel like a used napkin dropped on the ground.

Thursday, March 6, 2003

02:08 PM

"The Astronaut" by Something Corporate

Why are boys so mean and girls so crazy?

If we were all much nicer and more considerate of each other, we'd all be a lot happier.

03:00 AM

"All That Lies" by Jason Mraz

My feet are throbbing.

We had a college late night skate night at the ice skating rink, it was so much fun. I helped Lindsey turn into a pro figure skater, expect to see her in the Olympics soon. ;) Not that I'm fantastically pro myself, but I must say I landed gracefully into a girl as I tried to avoid her.

I spilled water all over this girl's paper I'm supposed to be revising. I feel bad. Should I retype it for her?

Sooo much reading, writing, and painting to do. I'm rebuilding a small foam board version of an Art Deco theater for my Vis3 class, and building a 1/4" scale set for "Riders To The Sea" for my Theater Design class. I'll post pictures when I finish them, if WS_FTP decides to behave. *shakes fist*

I watched "When Harry Met Sally" today. I must say I am in love. Who wouldn't be with the quintessential romantic comedy? Especially for the quintessential romantic comedy girl?

Wednesday, March 5, 2003

07:13 PM

"Diamonds Are A Girl's Best Friend" from Moulin Rouge

I just woke up from a nap. The last two days I've taken the time to take naps, however these naps haven't taken the time to be gentle with me. I've had crappy dreams consumed with things that are going wrong in my life. This afternoon I had a nap about this weekend falling through. BOO.

12:31 AM

"Heart and Soul" by Ella Fitzgerald

There was something relevant I wanted to say in this entry, but I've been completely dislodged from my train of thought.

ANYWAY, I'm getting excited: I think I really am going to road trip it up to the Sasquatch Festival in May with Mel and two Chris(es?)...I'm quivering like jello.

I'm sure I'll say something more poignant...one of these days.

Monday, March 3, 2003

01:59 AM

"Honestly OK" by Dido

According to: Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
brought to you by Quizilla, I am obsessive compulsive. And also according to: What's your Inner European?
brought to you by Quizilla, I am a Parsian.

Saturday, March 1, 2003

01:56 AM

"Clean&Sober" by Anya Marina

Oh and I think I may actually be road tripping it to this after all.

01:46 AM

"Punk Rock Princess" by Something Corporate

A lot of exciting things have happened in the last few days: all overshadowed by a deep blue melancholy - but more on that later.

I killed two people in Paranoia. *blows steam off gun* I am smokin'.

I'm getting my car for the rest of the quarter, so I'm taking a much needed trip home.

I went to the Juliana Theory and Something Corporate show last night on campus for free - it was pretty rocking. I thought that Something Corporate would be really corny live - but they were really amazing, I liked them a lot. I was especially impressed by the upright piano and the Hanson sticker on it. ;)

I went to "A Woman's Worth" - a conference for women (obviously) tonight, with much cajoling from my roommate and a few of her friends (who are my friends now too). It was put on by their church group, and it was such a beautiful night. One of the most beautiful women I know organized it, and it was truly an amazing experience. It was a little bit too religious and Christian for me, but I appreciated the universal levels of understanding projected to a college aged female audience. I started bawling during one girl's speech - one because she is a new friend of mine that I adore, and two because everything she said was a reflection of everything I've been thinking lately. She spoke so eloquently of the hole I've been in - and the hole she is overcoming.

I'm determined to learn "Goodbye To You" by Michelle Branch, mostly because I am extremely not a fan of hers and I am convinced I can be just as good or better than her. I looked at the tabs tonight and they're really basic, so I'm planning on learning it pat by the end of this week. (In between studying and papers, of course. Otherwise, down pat by tomorrow sucka!) On another note, my roommate was playing it in the car on the way back, and I realized that as vapid as the lyrics were, they were something I could relate to.

I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

I just want to do it better so that I can relate to it on a better level - her voice is just not it for me. I've rediscovered the value of vapid pop lyrics.

Anyway, now I have a lot on my mind for my personal journal.