Thursday, February 27, 2003
03:07 PM
"Unfold" by Jason Mraz
We're playing Paranoia in the house again: which means I will not be leaving my room anytime soon.My friend Lindsey and I invented "Cereal Suicide" earlier this quarter; I've been indulging ever since. To make cereal suicide: take every box (or just a few of your favorites) in the dining hall and pour them into a big bowl. I'm indulging RIGHT NOW as I write my papers.
02:38 PM
"1000 Things" by Jason Mraz
I want to go to this too. Even better than Coachella simply because of the goodness of Mr. Mraz.I've completely gone on a crazy downloading spree since I've discovered etree.org. And learned the value of a good b+p. I'm reliving the Spreckles show earlier this month - my suitemate is convinced she can hear our screaming.
I love love love this song.
Tuesday, February 25, 2003
07:00 PM
"Dream Life of Rand McNally" by Jason Mraz
Today I:1) Created large monsters of cardboard structures painted white with my classmates in my Vis Art studio.
2) Discovered my VisArt TA has a mohawk.
3) Finished Gina's package, but arrived at the post office five minutes late.
4) And walked back in a sudden downpour, without an umbrella.
5) Got very wet as a result.
6) Went to a Committee Meeting with Lindsey.
7) Ate a beef tamale.
8) Spent too much time on rightkindofphrase.com.
9) Resulting in me downloading the Schuba's Tavern concert for the rest of today.
10) Was introduced to a site that has videos of Mr. Mraz
11) Will have eaten up more than half my computer's harddrive with Mraz, due to new found items.
Monday, February 24, 2003
08:57 PM
"The Remedy" by Jason Mraz
I skipped lecture today and listened to Jason Mraz in the Star Lounge on the internet, since for once not being at home is kicking me in the ass.He made a reference to passing by and seeing fireworks at Disneyland - I saw fireworks from the freeway.
I just found myself an acoustic performance of "The Remedy". Oh so delightfully orgasmic.
01:44 AM
"You & I Both" by Jason Mraz
Well it's okay if you had to go away,
Just remember the telephones
They workin both ways
And the more you follow through
There's always more leftover
Not much explainin to do
And if ever ever ever you find a love
I'll be your lifeline
I'll never miss a phone call
But if I never ever hear it ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else
and that's okay.
What version is that?
Sunday, February 23, 2003
11:50 PM
"Heart and Shoulder" by Heather Nova
We just had a 1997 dance party to Hanson in my room! That was fantastic! Somehow it lifted the weight and stress I've been holding in. Never doubt the power of a good "Mmmbop".I'm a little excited - my suitemate told me she'd take me to the next film premiere she gets invited to since she never goes - the advantages of being in SAG and a child star!
12:52 PM
"Conversation With Myself" by Jason Mraz
Somehow my life always seems backwards. February is the month of love for the majority population of modern western civilization.However it just seems that I get my heart broken every February. Don't worry, it's just a fracture.
(Although fractures are harder than clean breaks.)
Friday, February 21, 2003
12:40 PM
"Lick My Lips" by Howie Day
The day is gorgeous. And I'm done with classes for the day. They should have told us that classes would be cancelled more as the quarter progresses - then I wouldn't have slept through so many in the beginning of the quarter!I'm going out to shoot some film, and use up my darkroom priviledges while I still have them for the next month. Then maybe I'll have some lunch and paint something beautiful.
Tell me true life love stories - about how you first met, about your first date, etc. I'm finding them inspiring and beautiful.
P.S. So sorry about the lack of photographic/artistic/textual content. On campus LAN = crap on a cable.
Wednesday, February 19, 2003
11:03 PM
"Don't Let Me Down" by No Doubt
The following information induced multiple orgasms:Indio, CA
Empire Polo Field
"Coachella Valley Music And Arts Festival"
Sat 04/26/03 Amon Tobin
Sat 04/26/03 Badly Drawn Boy
Sat 04/26/03 Beastie Boys
Sat 04/26/03 Ben Harper
Sat 04/26/03 Ben Kweller
Sat 04/26/03 Blue Man Group
Sat 04/26/03 Christopher Lawrence
Sat 04/26/03 D:Fuse
Sat 04/26/03 Darren Emerson
Sat 04/26/03 Division Of Laura Lee
Sat 04/26/03 Felix Da Housecat
Sat 04/26/03 Gomez
Sat 04/26/03 Groove Armada
Sat 04/26/03 Hernan Canteneao
Sat 04/26/03 Hot Hot Heat
Sat 04/26/03 Idlewild
Sat 04/26/03 Joseph Arthur
Sat 04/26/03 Kinky
Sat 04/26/03 Ladytron
Sat 04/26/03 Masters At Work
Sat 04/26/03 N.E.R.D
Sat 04/26/03 Nightmares On Wax
Sat 04/26/03 Particle
Sat 04/26/03 Peanut Butter Wolf
Sat 04/26/03 Queens Of The Stone Age
Sat 04/26/03 Roger Sanchez
Sat 04/26/03 South
Sat 04/26/03 Spymob
Sat 04/26/03 Stereo Total
Sat 04/26/03 Talib Kweli
Sat 04/26/03 The Donnas
Sat 04/26/03 The Libertines
Sat 04/26/03 The Mooney Suzuki
Sat 04/26/03 The Music
Sat 04/26/03 Wildchild
Sun 04/27/03 22-20's
Sun 04/27/03 Aesop Rock
Sun 04/27/03 Ben Folds
Sun 04/27/03 Black Eyed Peas
Sun 04/27/03 Blue Man Group
Sun 04/27/03 Cafe Tacuba
Sun 04/27/03 D.B.
Sun 04/27/03 DJ Irene
Sun 04/27/03 Deep Dish
Sun 04/27/03 Dirty Vegas
Sun 04/27/03 EL-P
Sun 04/27/03 Eisley
Sun 04/27/03 Fischerspooner
Sun 04/27/03 G. Love & Special Sauce
Sun 04/27/03 Jack Johnson
Sun 04/27/03 Johnny Marr & The Healers
Sun 04/27/03 Mouse On Mars
Sun 04/27/03 Mr. Lif
Sun 04/27/03 Primal Scream
Sun 04/27/03 Red Hot Chili Peppers
Sun 04/27/03 Richie Hawtin
Sun 04/27/03 Rjd2
Sun 04/27/03 Rooney
Sun 04/27/03 Sonic Youth
Sun 04/27/03 The Mars Volta
Sun 04/27/03 The Polyphonic Spree
Sun 04/27/03 The Soundtrack Of Our Lives
Sun 04/27/03 The Von Bondies
Sun 04/27/03 The White Stripes
Sun 04/27/03 Thievery Corporation
Sun 04/27/03 Timo Maas
Sun 04/27/03 Tortoise
Sun 04/27/03 Underworld
Sun 04/27/03 Whirlwind Heat
Sun 04/27/03 kINISON
DAMMIT. Does anyone have $140 - $150 they want to give me? Yes? Yes? Me love you long time?
01:36 AM
"One Find" by Jason Mraz
Tonight's Open Mic in the Quad was pretty great. I got what I asked for - a bunch of early twenty something Jason Mrazs scanting on the acoustic guitar like every college boy should. I met a really cute white boy who played the djembe. Ooooh Mr. Toca Rivera better keep it alive!
Tuesday, February 18, 2003
04:21 PM
"Anything But Down" by Sheryl Crow
By request of viewers like you, I will attempt to make my life sleazier and racier for the entertainment of the masses!I'll start by washing my dishes.
Monday, February 17, 2003
10:36 PM
"Sucker" by John Mayer
If Mr. Love himself is scared of love, what has the rest of the world have to offer?Emode.com says that the reason why I'm single is because I'm afraid to commit. :\
Sunday, February 16, 2003
11:48 PM
"On Love, In Sadness" by Jason Mraz
I'm rolling around in pink gingham and radio static. I heard Mr. Mraz on the radio five times this weekend. I only listened to the radio four. I'm so incredibly happy for him, but not thrilled to lose him to Los Angeles radio. San Diego radio, I could handle. But when that DJ on LA radio called him a "local kid", as in "L.A./Sunset local", I busted a crazy in the car.I think it was just a sign of holding onto a lot of things a lot more possessively and a lot more nostalgically than I thought I was.
It's funny that I keep collecting new shoes and clothes like a cocaine. I'm even lining them neatly in front of my mirror, like cocaine. I accept all this newness into my life obsessive compulsively, and yet I cannot look back on a lot of old things and feel triumphant.
I'm cleaning out this old computer at home this weekend because we're expecting it to die soon. Much like a beloved relative on life support, we're expecting this computer to take it's last heave any day now. And in the process of cleaning out this computer and sorting what's important from what's trivial (it's about .005:1090000 ratio right now), I realize I've accumulated - much like in real life - a bunch of memorabilia that however insignificant and irrelevant it seems now, it still pieced together some extremely extravagent period of time that branches off the main aorta of my life into an intricate bed of capillaries. Those capillaries spell out word for word, email by email, AIM conversation by AIM conversation everything it meant to me at the time. And somehow everything floods back. Some even date back to this adorable little relationship I had in eighth grade with a boy I hardly speak to anymore. Finding these artifacts, I IMed him - and I'm pretty sure he didn't expect it. He laughed, and I laughed, and we spoke the formal catch up conversation. But I'm pretty sure what once was lost is not found. And I'm okay with that. What I realized about that relationship was that the pattern has repeated itself over and over again. Not once, not twice, not thrice, but many more than I care to note.
What's my pattern, you ask?
Boy likes girl. Girl likes boy, a few days/weeks later. Boy stops liking girl. Girl confused. Boy and Girl eventually cease all means of communication.
Now is it going to take 6 more years after each relationship before it's okay to talk to them again?
The measure of love will never be lost on me. So I brought you this entry on love in all my sadness.
Wednesday, February 12, 2003
03:11 AM
"Another Pearl" by Badly Drawn Boy
We're playing Paranoia in the house. Not good for someone so neurotic...but I like to live my life on the edge. Unlike my suitemate Esther, who "doesn't want to live (her) life in fear!"
Tuesday, February 11, 2003
11:58 PM
"Kate" by Ben Folds Five
Mmm we decorated cupcakes and brownies at the house meeting today. I love it when college kids act like 2nd graders. :)I had something poignant to say but I totally forgot. Oh well.
11:40 AM
"So Unusual" by Jason Mraz
It's rainy and grey in San Diego today. I'm a poet and I don't even know it.I'm done with classes for today. I'm waiting for Lindsey to get pretty so we can go eat. I'm getting the OL response letter today at 1.
This is going to be the longest hour and a half of my life!
An hour and a half = 3 Sex and the City episodes, right?
I'm feeling suddenly inspired. Going to a sciency school is making me very boring. I like being in touch with my fuzzy friends and also my friends from home who know who I am.
I'm going to do my homework during the day while everyone is gone, and I think tonight I'll go look for some adventure.
But for now, I'm going to go eat!!
Monday, February 10, 2003
10:21 PM
"Everybody Here Wants You" by Jeff Buckley
Wow this is a hot song. It's another song I'd like to have sex to. This is more my nighttime sex song, where as "Your Body Is A Wonderland" by John Mayer is more of a sex in the afternoon song.There were two midterms today. I hate International Relations: really, it's no wonder nothing is ever solved in this world. It's so complex and idiotic, instead of picking the obvious best choice for both opponents, opponents tend to choose the second best out of default and mixed strategy etc. etc. What I learned from my poli sci class? Communication is key. And it's a wonder we haven't blown ourselves up yet.
I'm working on Valentines and my paper now. THREE days before it is due. I'm practically a saint.
03:19 AM
"Dream Life of Rand McNally" by Jason Mraz
Oh I forgot to mention, I saw How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days. It sounds like something I would do...except without it being an experimental article piece.
Saturday, February 8, 2003
06:07 PM
"Heart and Shoulder" by Heather Nova
This morning at the leadership conference, our Provost told us that yesterday afternoon a second year girl had committed suicide by jumping off of Pacific Hall.One is too many.
I'm going to start my own prevention program by just smiling more and being more friendly. As much as I say that I hate people, I really do love you all. I'll give you my heart, give you my shoulder.
Friday, February 7, 2003
05:03 PM
"Tonight, Not Again" by Jason Mraz
AHHH! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
How did it get to be 6th week without me noticing?!?!???!!??
Thursday, February 6, 2003
05:54 PM
"Pound for Pound" by Ari Hest
"It's so funny how we set qualifications for the right person to like.... while at the back of our minds, we know that the person we truly like will always be an exception..."A girl in my VisArt studio told me that.
Tuesday, February 4, 2003
07:34 PM
"What We Want" by Jason Mraz
I've been wrapping myself up in the deliciousness of this unfinished love song by jazzy Mr. Mrazzy. My sore throat is back and raging, probably from my lack of sleep or care for myself...but that's all stuff you're not interested in.I've made two important decisions regarding this website: I'm going to start writing more meaningful things in these entries - something between a Sex and the City column and a Jason Mraz road journal entry. Second, I'm going to keep it around for another year - and renew my domain. I've got much too much more to say about the next year to keep quiet.
Sunday, February 2, 2003
11:07 PM
"Fairy Tales and Castles" by Lifehouse
justin: omg no
justin: u would make it
justin: i totally have faith in u
justin: remember, WE DONT SETTLEI love Justin. This is why he is one of my best friends, the fact that he will remind me of what I really believe in...and the fact that he isn't afraid to discuss his flatulence.
01:13 AM
"0% Interest" by Jason Mraz
I am positively glowing - it's either from the fever or the multiple orgasm inducing Jason Mraz show I just got back from. Located in beautifully rustic Spreckels in the Gaslamp District...I convinced 5 friends to come with me and it was one amazing night of love and music. I'm so in love with this boy. I screamed and danced despite the fact that I have "dying disease from hell"*.I decided that what I love about Mraz (besides everything) is that he has this amazing amazing amazing poetic freestyle sense for lyrics that always make sense to me. He could have taught the Romantic poets a thing or two.
I never said this to anyone, really, especially to anyone that it mattered to. So I'm going to now:
Hey you - and you know who I'm talking to - "You & I Both" is about you & I both to me. The old school, live version, not the overprocessed radio version. Nothing more, nothing less.
*"Dying Disease from Hell" self-diagnosed by friend and...self.
Saturday, February 1, 2003
03:26 AM
"I Don't Love Anyone" by Belle & Sebastian
I'm amazed by the amount of crap people put up with when they become friends with me.And I'm amazed that I haven't been naturally selected by now. I was surely convinced this unidentified sore throat (that is still raging, mind you) would be the end of this poor little girl.
So tonight is Jason Mraz. I'm so excited.
What I'm really writing about though, is that now that I've turned off AIM and all my friends have gone to bed...I'm alone again with my neuroticness. And I hate myself for it.
