Wednesday, January 29, 2003
07:32 PM
"Say Hey" by Jason and Jane
Still feeling deathly ill - my throat is swollen to the size of Texas. I've spent practically the last 48 hours in bed and on pain killers. But I finally feel okay enough to sit up at my desk and listen to some Jason and Jane while doing some reading and application filling out. I think I will sip chamomile tea while I do all this.
Tuesday, January 28, 2003
06:47 PM
"Covered in Rain" by John Mayer
Change "getting a little sick" to "deathly ill". I'm deathly ill, and I don't imagine I will be around much longer. It hurts to live.
Monday, January 27, 2003
11:50 PM
"Spring" by Jason & Jane
I think I'm getting a little sick. I'm going to wash my feet, drink the Emer'gen-C that my suitemate gave me, and go to bed. Washing my feet always makes me feel cleaner and better. Does that make me sickly compulsive?
09:55 PM
"Mr. Mraz" by Jason & Jane
It was one of those fantastical fateful things. Where my roommate surprises me with the influence she was obviously meant to have in my life. As I was getting out of a terribly tedious two hour VisArt 3 lecture, I got a voicemail from her about Jason & Jane playing at a coffeeshop on campus. So I drop by the coffeeshop since it was close to my class...and I had been waiting so long to see Jason & Jane play. I just went by myself and listened complacently while sipping my caramel latte (I'm so pretentious it hurts). It was an amazing experience. They were incredible and so much up my corner. I talked to Jane after the show and I was really sad to hear that they were taking an indefinite break. But I am happily clutching Two Fridays for Thursday and feeling incredibly inspired.
Sunday, January 26, 2003
06:39 PM
"Leaving Town" by Dexter Freebish
So some big football game is in town, I hear? Famous people? Some football team from Tampa Bay practiced in our field? Some other football team from Oakland stayed at the Hyatt across campus?ANYWAY, I walked to the beach with Amy and Esther today and we studied hardcore. If studying hardcore entailed running into the Pacific and running back out, kicking water at each other, and holding onto each other's arms as the undertow pulls us in! Then I studied so hardcore I think I need an ice cream break right now!
Friday, January 24, 2003
12:23 PM
"Top of the World" by The Juliana Theory
I had this close call that could have ended terribly due to my tendency to procrastinate. I was up til 4 researching pictures for my set design for Riders to the Sea (one of the most dry and uninteresting plays I've ever read) and printing them for my project board. Then I decide to go to bed and do my scene analysis in the morning. Remind me never to tell myself that I can wake up at 7am. Anyway, the point is that I ended up skipping one of my discussions that I was actually up for (on purpose), so that I could finish my scene by scene analysis.Now I'm just sleepy. However, the point of this entry was to remind myself that I made it a goal next week to not procrastinate anymore. It's really cutting in on my quality sleep time.
To Do for next week (thus far):
1. VIS3: Buy a roll of tape.
2. POLI12: Read BdM Ch. 1, 2, 3, 4, 9;
Schelling Ch. 2, 3
3. THDE1: Rough costume design, build scale model box; Read Ch. 10, 3, 14&15
4. INTERMEDIATE PHOTO: Hunt down location to buy paper + film
5. Read 4 HA applications
6. Complete OL application
Thursday, January 23, 2003
10:12 PM
"No Such Thing" (covered) by Ari Hest
I went shopping today. I bought so many pretty things. It's such a curse to be beautiful, because then everything looks great on me and then I have to buy it. *hair toss hair toss* And then I'm fucked.
Tuesday, January 21, 2003
03:47 PM
"A Different Kind of Love Song" by Cher
Does "Dry Clean Only" really mean dry clean only? I guess we'll find out.
02:29 PM
"Overprotected" by Britney Spears
Important Question! Should I or should I not purchase the newest issue of In Style magazine for the Taylor Hanson Wedding page? Should I or should I not torture myself so? I mean really. Two carats Tiffany's? I TOLD you he was my dream man. Now should I buy In Style and torture myself? COMMENT NOW!
Monday, January 20, 2003
11:06 PM
"When You're Good To Mama" from Chicago
The love of my 12 year old life is gay.
The love of my 14 year old life is disgustingly, beautifully married.
Now I have to see wedding pictures.And I can't even hold onto a boyfriend. I am deeply depressed for the night now.
Saturday, January 18, 2003
08:23 PM
"Love Song For No One" by John Mayer
Just a word from the weary: laundry on a Saturday in college dorms = war game. I strategically schemed and calculated my way into the laundry system, because once you're in, you're in. It's all a matter of keeping time.
Friday, January 17, 2003
02:24 AM
"Kissing You" by Des'ree
How about being completely honest for a night? No ambiguities? But also, no names.I've been completely swept up in this relationship: and it's driving me nuts. The key to it was that we never discussed it with each other: we were in a silent agreement never to say anything. There was one moment of broken silence, but after that, it was a long period of picking up broken pieces. And now, we're exactly where we started. And I don't know. I'm moving on the best I can with my life and becoming who I want to be - but one completely unabashed act of kindness and care knocks me clearly off my feet.
Why am I so unresolved?
Okay. I lied about the ambiguities.
Monday, January 13, 2003
03:03 AM
"Come Pick Me Up" by Ryan Adams
I am not insomniacing it again tonight. I'm just overanalyzing too much in my head. Sometimes I need to stand back and take a breath.Saturday, I was on an ambitious hunt for a sweater from the Gap. I located every mall here and at home and called every location, until I secured myself this fantastic sweater. In my endeavor, I realize I have been to every mall in Orange County, except the one in San Clemente, which I have never heard of - and because San Clemente is almost half an hour away. The farthest south I will go for a mall when I'm home are the Shops at Mission Viejo, simply because it is a fantastic mall.
Please comment. There's nothing else that cheers up my day more than frivolous comments. And you know you've got a lot to say.
Sunday, January 12, 2003
02:50 PM
"Grace Is Gone" by Dave Matthews Band
It's one of those blustery Sundays.I've been getting up at at least 9 AM everyday this week. It's nice to have so much of the day. Now for those who know me, you know how unusual it is for me to wake up before noon on my own will - so I must admit, most of my classes are 9:30 or 10 in the morning this quarter. And then etc. etc.
Two of my best friends came down for the weekend; they left yesterday. We went to Lips, this fantastic drag queen dinner theater, and then Extraordinary Desserts, a little cottage of heaven. Every person who will ever visit me while I'm here will have to experience Lips. It's just a law.
My parents brought down my art supplies and took me shopping - hurray! I never noticed, but one of my friends at home brought to my attention that I get new clothes every week. It's slowed down a bit, due to the lack of transportation and lack of resources on my part by not having a car nor a job during the school year (respectively). So...I love my life. (INSERT AIM SMILEY HERE!)
I need to nap.
Wednesday, January 8, 2003
04:43 PM
"Pound for Pound" by Ari Hest
I'm back at school! I had a rocky first two days, complete with insomnia. I was plagued with taking enough credits each quarter so I could graduate in 4 years with my double major and all that...and I really really didn't want to take Spanish. I tried it out, and I just didn't like it. But now I've got everything figured out, and I'm feeling really confident and positive about my school career again.I freak out too easily. And stress too much. I admit it.
My classes are early and clumped together this quarter, so I am mostly free on afternoons now. I got myself a darkroom membership and I can print as much as I want. I'm getting a lot more involved this quarter, and that's the way I like it.
I bought myself a Cosmo desk calendar. My mom told me she bought me the subscription to Cosmo - for no reason. Yay for trashy magazines that are slipped in between thick textbooks!
Sunday, January 5, 2003
01:06 AM
Chicago soundtrack
P.S. My friends are visiting me at school next week. I'm terribly excited!!! (That's !!!)
12:48 AM
"Like I Love You" by Justin Timberlake
In about 12 hours, I'm moving back to school. Three weeks done. Let's take a look at my list of things to do over winter break again:1. Call John
2. Email Gina
3. Send Gina package
4. Work
5. Clean room
6. Finish 1 painting
7. Pick up paintings at Clarinel's house
8. Call Lisa
9. Spend time with all my friends
10. Eat copious amounts of food
11. Sleep more!
12. Spend time with grandma
13. Spend time with Lucy & Pepper
14. Send in scholarship application
15. Find someway to see Ari Hest play Jan. 21
Wow. Fairly successful Winter Break when it comes to getting things done. I think three weeks was just the adequate amount of time: although I only partied the first week I got back - and worked the two weeks afterwards. Christmas was of the same sort, with my mother, New Years Eve was safe, with my close circle of friends at home.
I don't think I'm ready to go. He called me pretty and said I broke his heart everytime I left. But the season's over, the sun sets, and I'm going home.
Friday, January 3, 2003
03:18 AM
"Jenny From The Block" by Jennifer Lopez
It was one of those fantastic nights I really ought to have more of: good movies, best friends, and lots&lots of laughs. That's one thing I really love about my friends: whenever we get together, we never run out of things to talk about, even in the late late late show hours of the evening.I'm working in about 4 hours. Hahaha. It's my last day. I'm not sure if it will be my last day ever or not. I don't think I want to work there again next summer, although it was a fun job. But what's really kept me going the past two weeks was my tendency to obsess over boys. If I didn't have that, I wouldn't be quite so avid about working.
I'm ready to go back to school - back to my real life in motion.
P.S. I was just kidding about the redesign, I think I'll just stick to this one.
P.P.S. I'm really loving your eMails, please send more! I will respond as soon as I get back to school - and on a computer that isn't going to explode.
Wednesday, January 1, 2003
08:46 PM
"The Game Of Love" by Santana ft. Michelle Branch
That was the first song I heard last night (early this morning?) driving home.It's 2003 and nothing feels different. But then again, nothing ever changes in one night, right? And when things do change, by the time you realize it, it's already passed you by.
My fingers are numb. I need a nap.
