Wednesday July 9, 2003

10:36 PM

"Work It" by Missy Elliot

I'm driving home from work, and this song comes on. At first I flip around the channels, and then return to it. I just break into a smile, I break into a big wide honest grin, because I love that, despite it's recent turbulence and lack of real elections, this country has provided people of all genders, races, and creeds the freedom of speech. That so many men died for the beliefs in the Declaration of Independence so that on this beautiful summer evening, I can hear Missy Elliot sing about her chacha.

It also reminds me of a Saturday morning last fall, in which we woke up in the dusky grey daylight to the first few beats of the song. I was disoriented, until he started laughing. I took it off my playlist. And then I scrambled back into his arms. It was a nice morning, I need more of those.

Tuesday July 8, 2003

9:16 PM

"What Would Happen" by Meredith Brooks

I am not: tall or easily intimidated.
I love: to love you baby.
I hate: celery.
I fear: rollercoasters.
I hope: for the best.
I hear: fireworks in the distance.
I crave: naps.
I regret: nothing.
I cry: over broken hearts and at Disney movies.
I care: a lot.
I always: wear pink.
I believe: in love songs.
I listen: religiously.
I hide: nothing.
I drive: fast.
I sing: loudly.
I dance: like I sing.
I write: like a dream.
I play: well with others.
I miss: San Diego.
I search: for truth, beauty and love.
I learn: quickly.
I feel: peaceful.
I know: just enough.
I say: I'm cold hearted and cruel, but I'm really a hopeless romantic.
I succeed: everytime.
I dream: in black and white.
I wonder: what you're doing under the same pale moon.
I want: a lot.
I have: a lot.
I give: with all my heart.
I fell: in love with life.
I fight: injustice with a french manicure.
I need: a pedicure.

12:12 PM

"If I Had A Million Dollars" by Barenaked Ladies

The last few days have been a lovely dreamy summer; the mornings are grey while I'm in school, then the sun comes out to play when I'm out.

We had a bonfire at the beach yesterday, first semisuccessful fire I ever built. It was gorgeous, spending the afternoon licking the salt of potato chips off my fingers as the waves crashed against my bare legs in a whirlwind of ocean and gravelly sand. I pored over articles on the latest celebrity gossip while stretched out underneath a flawless sky. I wrote poetry in my head. The night slipped in, and after eating hamburgers grilled over the bonfire and watching greasy chips burn in the flame faster and brighter than the wood would, Danielle and I slipped back into the ocean. The dark ocean looked like turbulent grass jelly rolling forward in graceful, ambitious waves and crashing into white oblivion. Many times the waves settled for so long on land that it appeared that we were standing in the middle of the vast ocean, rather than the shore. The pale half moon reflected onto the dancing sea surface, reminding me all too much of the first scene in Moonlight Mile.

Life is too beautiful sometimes, and I live for all these moments.

P.S. I'm also devouring books at a rapid pace, so check the reading list often.

Wednesday July 2, 2003

6:45 PM

"Independent Women Pt. 1" by Destiny's Child

I saw Legally Blonde 2: Red, White, and Blonde today. It was lovely, like flipping through a magazine made for the blonde. I think there is too much emphasis on the blonde aspect of the film, the whole "blonde respect" argument that I am growing weary of. Honestly, hair color discrimination is the least of the discriminations we need to worry about at this moment!

I finished Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix yesterday; I am quite the media minion this summer, aren't I?

I'll save the vapidness for another day; it is unbearably hot in this room, and I have another book to read. I've made it a goal to read a book a week this summer, and although I have my hands full, I'd appreciate suggestions.

I will update soon with a lot of the photography I've taken this past spring quarter; and perhaps a new layout if the muses move me.

Until then, au revoir!